sheer human love and stubbornness to keep showing up

I was looking at a few companies which I am planning to apply a job in. 

The companies include pharmaceutical companies like Merk and Eli Lilly, Management consulting firms like Oliver Wyman, and other health sysem providers like theranos and cerner. 

Oliver Wyman caught my eye, I fell in love with it almost instantly. 

It's a management consulting firm. People working there seem brilliant.They value intellectual pursuits. It has a non-hierachial structure. It values entrepreneurial spirit. They encourage the employers to develop personal interest. The atmosphere in the company seems to be supporting and warm, and They all have that adventurous spirit.They have global offices in Dubai, Munich, Boston, Paris. People travel arround the world for their work. Diversity is highly valued as I can see tons of minority faces.

There are people from both high profile Universities and well as small unknown Universities, meaning they both hire people with demonstrative education background at the same time not totally focused on just the hardware background.

The company seems to match my interests and pursuits in a very comprehensive and deep level and I really appreciate how the executive of the company manages to build some a nice and thoughtful and vey powerful environment for their employees. 

So how I feel about it?

I feel very excited, of course, for be able to find such company. and I really really would like to get in. Then I feel kind of lost at the same time. because, I seriously doubt my ability to get in......I have no doubt in my intelligence, or interpersonal skills, or how fast I will learn, or whatever. But I have serious doubt about how they can see my value despite my degree in biochemistry and lack of consulting experience or a top-noche University degree. 

So What do I do?

Based on previous experience, my natural reflex would be, oh no there is no way I can get in, I must as well give up instead of facing the failure that's doomed to come. Then I looked other ways. 

But what are the other ways? The other ways are getting a biotech job or something that I am just not that interested in. 

I always automatically "disqualify" myself from the things/people that I want the most, and settle for the less because of less risk and because I don't want to face the possible failure. 

This has almost being a pattern of my whole life in which I just don't have the courage to pursue what I really wanted because I "assume" that I will never be able to get it so why risking the rejection and failure. 

This is a very self-destructive habit which is based on the wrong assumption of my worthlessness. 

Knowing my problem is a very giant step to get out of it. I'd like to quote one of my favorite authors-Elizabeth Gilbert's TED talk, which has been inspiring me tremendously in my treacherous hike out of my own self-destructiveness.

"Don't be afraid, don't be daunted. Just do your job. Continue to show up for your piece of it, whatever that might be. If your job is to dance, do your dance. If the devine, cockeyed genius assigned to your case decides to let some sort of wonderment be glimpsed, for just one moment through your effort, then "Ole!" And if not, do your dance anyhow. And "Ole!" to you, nonetheless, just for having the sheer human love and stubbornness to keep showing up. "