Permannet job

So I was making plans for job searching. Then I have a sub-category called “temporary job searching”, meaning if I don’t find a satisfying job, I should have a backup plan to get a job to at least keep myself alive&sane.


BUT, there is a question of definition (like always): What is a temporary job? How do I draw a line between a temporary job and an ultimate/permanent one? A job to keep myself alive? or A job that is not satisfying but pays money? or A job that is not my ultimate dream but help me achieve that goal? How is a temporary job different from: A job that pays a lot of money or a job that gives me a lot of fame despite my dislike of the job? What about people that are stuck in a job which they consider as just a way of income? 


Most people in the world go through their lives going from one temporary job to another, only closer to what they wanted, but never quite there. To some extent, all job in the world could be considered as “temporary job”. As one’s understanding and experiences advances, the jobs that one originally considered as “ultimate goal” would drift and become a temporary job. And the definition of temporary job could only make sense if presented with an alternative--a “permanent job”. 


What would be my permanent job? The first idea, is that whatever job I do I will keep writing, I will be a writer of my own, that’s my permanent job. (The funny thing is, even though I assume temporary job is easier to get than permanent job, the fact is that I am already doing my permanent job, yet without a mean of sustaining my live-hood....) Then more ideas related to my permanent job as a writer flashed: learning all knowledge in the world, practicing perception capability to see past human flaws and rationalizations, experiencing the deepest love and compassion, helping people, revolutionizing Chinese female rights, spreading worthwhile ideas, facing up and downs in life calmly, building  deep relationships…...........


Those are my permanent jobs. Basically my permanent jobs will be trying to live a worthwhile life in which I lived it to the full extent AND providing value to this world.....in this sense the idea of permanent job is not accurate, because it’s not exactly a job, it’s rather an altitude in everything that I do.


Everything is temporary at the face of the the mortality of human being, the relentlessly passing of time and eternity. But at this particular moment where I am writing and you are reading, this moment will be permanent. And I am glad that I am doing my job.